Crafty Dayeseye

One Year Later

One year later and the pain is still fresh.

One year later and I still miss you.

One year later and the hole in my heart is no smaller.

But...

One year later I am able to remember the lessons I learned.

One year later I am practicing more patience.

One year later I am living more fully.

One year later I am not having any regrets.

One year later I am loving fully for as long as I am able.

And...

One year later I realize that loving the way I loved you is the only way to live.

jwmg2011

One year ago Harper died, a piece of my heart died that day too.  One year later as much as it hurts I can smile and be thankful for the time we shared.

How can one animal mean so much? Be such a vehicle of learning and a catalyst of self improvement? How does one animal make us laugh, cry, dream, and live more fully?  I can't answer these questions, I just know one animal did; Harper.

 

You Are Not Gone

One year ago my aunt died.

One year ago my family's heart broke.

Today, I have two words:  Fuck Cancer

You are not gone.

I may not recognize you right away

But then I feel warmth,

Look into a smile,

Sometimes I even hear laughter,

I know it is you.

 

You are not gone.

The joy you brought

Continues on,

It lifts me up and my heart sings,

Sometimes I even hear laughter,

I know it is you.

 

You are not gone.

In my thoughts and my dreams

Find your warmth,

See your smile,

I even hear your laugh,

I know it is you.

JWMG 2011

 

Edythe's cancer was a curse, but she would never tell you that.  She was brave, strong, and full of spunk, to her last days.

She never gave up her bad jokes. 

She never gave up her straight face when telling you "I never knew you couldn't sing!"

She never gave up making other people feel great.

Edythe never gave up.

LOVE.